I toyed with whether I should write this post, whether I should put my feelings out there for so many people to read, or whether I should continue to hide away. I came to the realisation however, that maybe writing it would help me. Maybe it would help someone else.
People will constantly walk in and out of your life, but that knowledge doesn't really make it any easier. When you see an opportunity ahead, something that you really want, but that involves changing the entire shape of your life as you know it, what do you do? Do you sit there, brush it to the side, saying 'maybe another time'? Or do you run at it? Two months ago, I would of been the former. I've been that girl before.
I recently broke up with someone based on a dream. I realised that I couldn't live my life not seizing opportunities, taking risks and doing something for myself. I do however, walk around with a heavy weight of guilt and sadness - have I done the right thing? Will my dream even come true? Will everything be ok again someday?
Whilst I still feel very much in the midst of my personal battle, what I do know is that life is short, and we only get one chance to live it. I want to look back on mine and feel like I experienced every crazy little thing I set my heart on. Life is what you make of it.
Letting go is never easy, but it doesn't always have to be about loss. Letting go is about cherishing memories, overcoming sadness and moving on with an open mind, and confidence in the future. It might take a little while to get there but you have to have faith that things will work out - maybe not as you hoped, but just how they're meant to.
Change is inevitable for all of us at some point, it's the back bone of life. Whether you've been through something similar, have made a change, or might in the future - just remember not to be afraid to surrender who you are for what you could become.
I recently found a quote which I'll end this nonsensical ramble with. It's one of the only things that's really made sense to me the last few weeks.
"In the end, only three things matter: how much you loved, how gently you lived, and how gracefully you let go of things not meant for you."